October 15 is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, although not officially in all Canadian provinces. Angie Smith, a mother who lost her sweet Audrey in April 2008, wrote these words...
"All of us who have lost babies know that it isn't just one day a year.
It's Tuesday, when all the other kids are playing on the swingset.
It's Sunday, when you don't have one to bring to Sunday school.
It's Thursday, when you wish you could know what her favorite after-school snack would have been.
It's Friday, and you can't stop crying.
It isn't one day, it's every day.
Relief comes in pockets but the truth is that there is a gap that cannot be filled here..."
"All of us who have lost babies know that it isn't just one day a year.
It's Tuesday, when all the other kids are playing on the swingset.
It's Sunday, when you don't have one to bring to Sunday school.
It's Thursday, when you wish you could know what her favorite after-school snack would have been.
It's Friday, and you can't stop crying.
It isn't one day, it's every day.
Relief comes in pockets but the truth is that there is a gap that cannot be filled here..."
For me, the hard days are...
... when I hear of a mother who has just given birth to healthy twins, especially when they're boys
...when I hear that someone is pregnant with twins
...when I hear someone call their child, "Josh" or "Jonah"
...when I see other little boys in Grade 1, the grade the boys would be in now
These are the times when my heart aches for my eldest sons.
We are so very blessed that we have been entrusted with the honour of raising Abby, Jude and Jordan.
We are also blessed that we were entrusted with parenting our sweet Joshua and Jonah, even if only for a short time.
1 comment:
*hugs* my friend. I know it can't be easy.
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