Joe and my sister Joan were twins. Knowing the bond that Abby, Jude and Jordan have as siblings, I can't imagine what it must have been like for my sister to lose her best friend... the one with whom she shared our mother's womb... or for my eldest sister to lose her little brother.
With the loss of Josh and Jonah, I certainly know the heart-stabbing pain of losing a child. It was (and some days still is) excruciatingly difficult. As I've shared before, I grieved for all the memories that we would never have with our boys and for all the ways that we would not get to know them this side of Heaven.
...knowing his first word and when he lost his first tooth, when he caught his first fish and got his first hockey goal...
...for that child to suddenly leave this world on a cold November afternoon...I pray I never have to experience what that loss would be like.
Only God in His Sovereignty knows the "why". We like logic and reasoning. We want to know the why and yet, it's not for us to know (even though we think that it would provide us with comfort in some way). It is for us to believe. It is for us to trust that the Creator of the universe knows and for us to take comfort that we are all in His hands.
This life is but a vapor.... a blink in light of eternity. I know that one day I will enter into His gates with thanksgiving. I will again see my sweet little boys and meet my big brother (who I like to think all spend lots to time together in Heaven). It won't matter that I didn't have all the reasons why God chose the path He did for all of us. It will matter that I chose to trust and believe.
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I don't know if I ever knew about your family's loss way back then, Lez (though I may have, too - my mind is like a sieve these days)...bless you for daring to trust, for being a blazing example of faith and obedience for your littles and the many other lives in your sphere of influence. Praying for you, Friend!
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